God is up to something big (He usually is), yet this time He is asking me to jump all in, with Him. I am not inherently courageous, so this isn’t about my ability to be brave, in fact, it’s more about being completely terrified, and believing any amount of peace that I feel, comes from His tender heart.
Nine months ago, I said “Yes” to sharing my God Story at my church. It was filmed at an old house, that I lived in as a young girl, and shared a few weeks later with my church family.
I’ve always known this time was coming. From the age of 14, I knew I would share my story, I just had no idea when or how.
Nine months later, God decided to take my story to another church.
Three weeks ago, I woke wide awake at 2:30 am, with three words being spoken firmly, “Tell the Story”. As I became more cognizant of what that meant, a song came forth. I mostly heard the music, and a phrase,
“….no limits, no boundaries, I see increase all around me, stretch forth, break forth, release me, enlarge my territory.”
I recognized the song (Vicki Yohe-Increase Me), and also that this was the Prayer of Jabez in 1 Chronicles:
“Jabez, he was the one who prayed to the God of Israel, ‘Oh, that you would bless me and expand my territory! Please be with me in all that I do, and keep me from trouble and pain.’ And God granted him his request.”
Night after night, I wake up with this song, and so I pray that as I step out in surrender, He will make the next step known. I am like anyone else, who would really appreciate a detailed map, with step by step instructions. He knows that what I really need is simply the next assignment. He knows that if He gave me every detail about what lays before me, I might opt out.
I know that my next two assignments are:
1) Make one phone call.
2) Start typing on a blank page.
After that, I don’t know what comes next. I am most assured He does.
If you are reading this and feel directed, this girl could use prayer.
I have not doubt that God has a Redemption Story to share, and He has asked me to be a willing Storyteller. It comes with sacrifice, uncharted territory, courage, discipline…all things that He is supreme in.